shomale gham,ghame shomali

khob in manam,az ghiafamam gamunam halam malume

az gushie dai motenaferam!yealam az vaghtamo gereft...
kash bidar bashi...
chesham daran miran
shabetbkheyr eshghe man:*

:)

in kuchuluha az poste ghablim ja mundan:D :*

rain,headache & cheghad khub bud!:)

che barune khubi,khis shodamo khisimo kheyli dus dashtam,ye barune tondo baadam rupusho lebase khiso imane abkeshide:)
marizaro dus daram,inke cheghad rahat mishe bahashun bedune etlafe vaght hamrah shod arumeshun kard tu deleshun ja shodo kenare hameye ina karetam khub anjam bedio tahesh az deghate moayenei k kardio az tashkhiset razi bashi
saram hanuzam dard mikone:( dus dashtam baghalet konam,toam saramo baghal konio arum miune atret bekhabam
che ehsase ghashangie,engar k adam yejaye beheshti dare,faghat yedune,male khodet,unam tu kole donya
fekresham arum konandas
jomlato dus dashtam,kheyli dus dashtam
duset daram khanum dr e naze man
shabetbkheyr eshghe man

once upon a time...a beautiful fairy,caged in a cave...doomed to be prisoned deep in the oceans ...

delam gerefte
rastesh mikhastam dastane un 2ta ahango vasat begam,ama rastesh hale dastan goftan nadaram
arezu mikonam alan che khab che bidar ru labo delet shadi bashe

good morning:)

nemidunam alan bidaram ya khabam:) ruze ghashangie,aftab ghashange sobune ghashange,hamechi ghashange
ama khob,adam taajob mikone,k chetor ye mujude 163cm i mitune binahayat deltangi doros kone...
eshgham,163cm e naze man,alan hatman bidari,dari ya dars mikhuni ya sheytanat mikoni:):*
kash shado khub bashi,yealameam ghaza bokhori k hichvaght be harfam gush nemidi:(:*
rasti,in axaro dus dashtam,goftam vasat bezaram

hello:)

um,be in chandvaghte negah kardam,kamie vaght,khastegi,bahunegiri,stressai k be atraf montaghel kardam,topol shodanam va va va...tu ye kalum lame!
chizaye dgeiam hast,ham az man ham az to,ama miduni chie?ma ye amanati dastemun dashtim,eshghemun,mehro alaghamun,hanuzam tu dastam hesesh mikonam.
gahi bahash bad ta kardim,gahi ziad balegh nabudim,gahi ghatie ghamao moshkelaye gozara kardimesh,gahi ba nadidanamun azyatesh kardim...teflio kollan ziad azyatesh kardim!khob ma mujudate sheytuni mibashim k sheytanato azyat lazemo malzume haman!:) kidding!
miduni,duri dard dare,sakhti dare,binahayat,ama yad gereftam k darde durio nabayad ghatie eshgho dust dashtan kard,hamuntor k nabayad moshkelaye ruzmareo maho baghiaro ghatish kard
intori kam kam bejaye eshgh kuchuluye naz ina dide mishan,unvaght,vaghti chize asli ghayem mishe,chizaye hashieio chizai k kheyli kamtar ahamiat daran be cheshm miano adam azyat mishe!
eshghemun,amanatie nazemun,jash amne,hanuz koli rah dareo kuchulue hanuz.
rastesh kheyli az inaro emshab fahmidam,fahmidam lame o azyat konandeo hatta khaste konande budam vaseye ye modati,bahune,moshkel...uuuuuh...va,kheyli bade,hatta vaghtam nadashtam,na tafrihi na khandei...va vaghti cheshamun yeja dgaro negah kone,bishtar hashiaro mibinim...
hala ye jahesh be ye muzue dge!:) age alan bekham vasat gol begiram,vasat rose sefid migiram:* motmaenam maanisho miduni:) eshghe man,miduni,vaghti harfe shado sohbato vaghti nabashe,man andazeye 600ta kahkeshanam asheghet basham farghi nemikone!vaghti sohbat nakonim,eshghamo ba negah,ba ye navazeshe sade,ba ye jomle vaght nashe bet neshun bedam,hala harcheghadam vase khodam bezanam tu saramo shabo ruz daghun basham na farghi mikone na mofide na taasir dare!hala biam 100ta smso mailam bedam!taze in vasat bahunegirio oghat talkhiam bokonam:( k tu in ghesmat kheyli kam hagh ba mane:(
cheshmo zabun,vaghti tu cheshe ham negah konim,vaghti zabunam vasat harf bezaneo gush konim,vaghti rah berimo zendegio besazim...(cheghad ghashang!)...hichi jaye inaro nemigire,na tell,na sms na hichhi tu kolle in donya!unvaght hamechi asune,hamechi ghashange,baham arumim,shadimo ghavitar az hamisheo hamechi moshkelaro dune dune rad mikonim:)
va vaghti k khob kam harf bezanim,ye hajme aaazimi az mafhumato injurchiza saay mikone az ghalebe kalamato zamane mahdud rad beshe,unvaghte k khob kalameha mipichan kollan hamechi mipiche,asan yejurai kalameha chronic HTN migiran:)
tu durio deltangi vaghti vaghto sohbate ba to nabashe hamnafase man,unvaght kolli ghamo pushio mafahime bimored mian,khob tabiEye:( baadam age ina bekhan ba un kalamehaye mariz montaghel shan k dge nagu!
hastijunam man roze meshki dus daram,ama miduni,behet rose sefid bishtar az hame miad alan,ruye gushet:* ba un cheshaye sheytunet:)
goftam az sabz bishtar az hame ranga khosham miad,begam chera?:) fahmidam k range cheshme hastimo,kollan rangaye hastimo az hamechi bishtar dus daram:)
alan saat 3:00AM e:)
kuchulumun ru sinam khabide,bahar na ha!unam are vali manzuram eshghemune:) albatte kuchulue vali mashalla ye kahkashanesh zire zamine:)
az ruye shunash k negah mikonam,yealam roshani mibinam,omido shadio inaha!:) chizaye ghashang va yealam zuri k bem mide.
alan k masalan be baadaz zohram negah mikonam badam miad!eshgh nabayad nale bashe!eshgh latife,zolale khonakeo pore rangaye ghashango shad,va arum...hichki az naleo zari khoshesh nemiad!
hastijunam yekam stress daram,yekam k na,kheeeyli!raje be fekret,tasmimet,agha moshavere k alan yejurai tu zehnam mese agha ampulzane bachegiame!ru labeye tigham asan!ama nemitarsam,chon emshab cheshamo va kardam,nur didamo omid,ba ye ofogh pore shirinio ghashangio aramesh...
engar kheylivaght bud k lab be manbae ghodratam nazade budam!engar yedafei bidar shodam!
dus daram farda ghable inke bidar shi bet sobbkheyr begam ba ye rose sefid ru gunat k az ru nachari mizaram tuye maileto yedune bus:)
hatmanam vaghti sobbkheyro busamo bebini injuri :| mikhunisho baad injuri :/  mishio jvb amo midi migi :| sobbkheyr:))
kidding,nemidunam chejuri jvb midi...
man age ashegh basham ba naleo chizaye dge negahet nemidaram,man ba ghafas parandeye nazamo negah nemidaram ya ba gerye...age mano nakhad hagh dare besh shadi bedam,k nazaram tasmimesh narahatesh kone...bayad besh shadi bedamo in etminan k tasmimesh vasam azize...doroste,sakhteo age...k khoda nakone,sargardune daryaye gham mishamo shayad vaghean ghargh sham...ama,man parandeye nazamo na ba nale negah midaram na ba ghafas na ba esrar,man parandeye nazamo ba eshgh negah midaram,ba raftari k layegheshe,ba mehrabunio zolal budano samimiat,tu hameye sanieha bahasham,hamnafasesham,amniatesham va age ye fazaye khali khast khob bayad aghe bashamo besh bedam...nabayad unghad fesharesh bedam teflio k leh beshe...
hala ye jaheshe dge:)
hastie man aziztarinam ba ye sedaye mardune,hamunjur k dus dari...khub bekhabi eshghe man
duset daram rose man

shiver

inja pavione
deraz keshidamo ghalbam tond mizane,montazere jvb e smsetam,gahivaghta tasavore inke ye sms adamo inghad monghaleb kone ajib benazar miad
inke midunam smsam alan daran bet miresan,gushit dasteteo dari mibinishun,inke kalameham tu dastetan,inke baham harf mizani,hatta sard,hatta ye jomle...
hamishe mitunestam khub harf bezanam,ba hame,ama nemidunam ta alan motevajehe in taghir shodi ya na,kasio k dus daram,jomleham beham mirizan az dasram darmiram hol misham ya hadeaghal az dide khodam intorie...
age inja budiam nemitunestam bebinamet,chon nirusho nadaram,na inke tarsuam ya zaif,na,vase inke az axolamalam mitarsam,nemidunam chetori misham,geryam migire,paham sost mishan,nafasam tond mishan,farar mikonam...nemidunam,hichi nemidunam
faghat midunam k kash hamun rabinson kruzue basham ba hamun ghiafeye beham rikhte...
nemidunam hatta inaro mikhuni ya na,nemidunam dus daram bekhuni ya na...
emruz shayan yealam soalpicham kardo be khiale khodesh mikhast bem mehrabunio komak kone,hamclasim,hafteye pish mano dide bud k tu rahro gerye mikardam...koli khejalat keshidam ama berum nayavordamo muzuo avaz kardam...
cheshmat daran pc o mibinan,saghfo,kianaro,mamano babaro hastio...yani inghad duram k hatta nemishe bedunam chi tuye cheshmate...
tazegi fahmidam range morede alagham dge abi nist,sabze...
moraghebam,moraghebam k nagam duset daram,nagam mikham baghalet konam,az halam k ba marg farghi nadare hichi nagam k age ino mikhuni az siahie kalameham khaste nashi...
duset daram
youre my safest place to hide...ye shab bud k ino vasat goftam,in ahango...alan mitarsam
shayad ghashang nabashe goftanesh,ama alan hichi nistam...
duset daram
eshghe man duset daram
asheghetamo bighararamo dard mikesham
ama midunam k nemikhay beshnavi

sometimes...

kheylivaghta tu zehnam hamchin tasviri dashtam,ye hamchin sabiz yehamchin asemune abiE...gahi fek mikardamo mikonam,baham farar konim,hamechio vel konimo az hamechi begzarimo biaym ye hamchin jai 2nafare zendegimuno shoru konim...zire asemune saf to mano dashtio man toro...kheylivaghta mishe ghashangtarin arezum...diruz vaghti injaro didam,ashkam budan k ghatie aragham miumadan...to inaro nemikhay,hichkodume inaro nemikhay...man ba ye donya nuro omid,poshte cheshmat dafn misham...
duset daram
ba ye damane golgoli tu in sabzie ghashang...
halam khub nist
hatta inaro negaham nemindazi
bye

homeless

Waiting here for you to call me
For you to tell me that everything's a big mistake
Waiting here in this rainfall, feeling so small
This dream was not supposed to break
I'm so sorry now, for the pain I cost you
Won't you please forgive, please
But you don't love me anymore
You don't want me anymore
There's a sign on your door
No, they can see just emptiness without your love
I'm homeless
In this cold I'm walking aimless
Feeling helpless
Without a shelter from the storm
In my heart, I miss you so much
Missing your touch
And they ever used to be so wrong
I'm so sorry now, for the pain I cost you
Won't you please forgive, please
But you don't love me anymore
You don't want me anymore
There's a sign on your door
No, they can see just emptiness without your love
I'm homeless
Oh baby!I'm sorry!
But you don't love me anymore
You don't want me anymore
There's a sign on your door
No, they can see just emptiness without your love
I'm homeless

in ahangie k poshte ham gush midamo chizi joz gerye tu jvb nadaramva ghebte mikhoram be hameye kasai k azat sahm daran,joz man k junam be nafaset bastas...ghebte na,hesadat,va be in hesadatam be har shekli k raje be to bashe,eftekhar mikonam...

feeling paralysed...nothing makes sense...

hell seems to be funny everywhere but in real deams...

Im walking,cold...looking at people laughing all around...not exciting...just looking fwd to find a silent place...maybe one day,my ashes fly above these laughs and as they say,rest in peace...

but now there is no peace...I cant sleep...the tears here seem endless...

powerless...

nemidunam chetor tunestam beshnavam namiramo jvb bedam...

nemikhamet,man ye adame sade mikham na to,tahe delam ye hesi hast k nemikhamet...

chera inaro ghablan bem nagofte budi?vaghti man hamechio migoftam?!

taghat nadaram!dge taghate in kalameharo az to nadaram!toi k in chand ruz dari mikoshim!mage man che eshtebahi kardam?

delam tang shode,vase hamechim

bahar did k baba dishabam ba gerye khabesh bord...

bem begu iman,faghat begu iman narahat nabash,shayad alan beshkani ama ghavi bash age ghavi bashi mituni har3tamuno dobare kenare ham jam koni...

u said no...

right now,I asked if u want me anymore or not...if u love me anymore or not...u said no...u said no...u said no...u said no...u said no...

kash mimordam kash hichvaght in ruz nemiresid!hes mikonam hameye zendegim harchizi k daram ba ghadam zadanet ba dur shodanet dare azam kande mishe,az tu ghalbam

hasti man badbakhtam,badbakht,hala k bakhtamo dari mibario miri

koja miri?chera?

Im just falling...

nights just passin by...feeling like theres no way out in this nightmare...emptiness,is killing me...

I wish...

kash hale to mese man nabashe
eshghe man,bekhand,man mohem nistam,arzeshe khandato nadaram,khandaro az labat nagir...khoda kone khub bashi...smsamo jvb nadadi...

everythings smell like death...

playing cards,xbox,smoking...just emptiness...

kash

dastam milarzan,axet,sedat inja shabihe khakseparie

kash zire khak miraftam,ama in dard tamum mishod,na nemikham tamum she

hasti man imanam,sedamo mishnavi?ya labkhandet joza az man dare ruberuto mibine?!torokhoda!

my love,dnt wry,Im here,dying...

I wish I could sing the death...at least then I had a voice...

this nightmare has no end

Im walking,still walking...I have no purpose,no home,no life,I have nothing left
I just dnt know,let me die,Im begging u

blog address

I know u dnt even know the blog address,u dnt bother to chek the blog.
u dnt even cheked the mail.
& I feel stupid 4 using ur mail.
misery,this is my life now.

http://you-me-spring.blogspot.com/

darling I dont want anything but u

death is here

frankly,I dont need my life anymore without u in it

Im just a dead walking man now

I just cant

I just cant!I cant!I cant pretend that i dnt wanna talk to u!Im spending my time talkin nonesense to anyone I can,to stop myself talkin to u!its killin me,Im dying,I just wanna call ur namesedam koni,begi imanam,imane khubam,bidar sho,ina hamash ye khabe badehastie man eshghe man zehnam kar nmkne faghat midunam k daram mimiramtorokhoda halet khub bashe torokhoda nemidunam chikar konam daram tike tike mishamnisti hichi nist hamechi zeshte hamechi zajrehasti torokhoda pas kojai?manam,man hamun imanam imane to eshghe tobekhoda hatta 1 az hezaramam nadidikhodaya man cheghad badbakhtam hasti man inja tu ye donyaye bedune to daram jun midam bekhoda nemitunam

where are u now?whats inside ur eyes?

let me be there,let me stay,I cant stand  this nightmare anymore!I love u!after all these years I still love u more than ever!this is unique!this is sth ur gonna miss it!I love u!yes,we didnt have time,we had unsolved issues!but who hasnt?!we figure them out all,together!just let me be by ur side!just let me breath one more time!let me live!let me love!Im begging u!I was going to end this misery yesterday,sharp,deep,red!Im getting crazy!oh god plz!im dying!hasti plz!hasti mazerat mikham harkari k kardam,hasti bargard,hasti man donyayi bedune to balad nistam,nemishnasam,nemikham!mimiram!margo tarjih midam!

Im just dying...

where are u my little angel?!what was wrong with me?!another guy?tired?I just cant going on anymore...its killing me inside out...